"When I walked into the clinic for the first time I was scared, lonely and ashamed. The first couple of days were spent crying, missing my home, wife, and children, beating myself for being where I was. I soon realised that I was in the right place for me. The counsellors were very caring towards me and offered lots of support in order to settle me in. Once I was calm they started the process slowly and the amount of medication I needed in a prefect dose, so I was being looked after.
As the time progressed the treatment delved deeper and deeper into my emotions, past life problems and gave me the tools I needed to take with me. I have learnt so much about not only myself, but also the effects my illness has had on others. The sheer comfort of the clinic and the enthusiasm of everyone who works in it helped me so much into relaxing into the state of mind and openness I needed to start the healing process. Thank you to everyone for all the help I got in order to live an alcohol free life. It was mentally draining and sometimes brutal, but that's exactly what I needed."
I hope everything is good with you. Back home now. Had a fantastic trip and am now enjoying the sunshine and more importantly, my hubby's company. It's great to be back.
Went to my first meeting last night and to say it was unusual is an understatement - certainly not what I expected!! Initially there were four Americans and me (with husband in tow!!). It was an 11th Step Meeting and after a very minor introduction we then meditated silently for 12 minutes. Everyone then proceeded to share about their day/week and the frustrations they were encountering. It was just like Process but without the feedback!! Lee said afterwards that he had wanted to 'share' back and explain that he feels exactly the same most of the time!! They were all teachers and seemed really pleasant but so different. My friend turned up late as the traffic had held him up - he is British and is something to do with Finance I think. Again he shared and it was just like Process!! Anyway, I am sure it will be fine and I will be going back on Saturday to discover more!!
Thank you all again for my lovely experience - I cannot express what my time with you has meant to me. Suffice it to say that I am very happy.
Hopefully hear back from you.
Take care and God bless."
"The power of the experience I have now compared to the experience I had before speaks for itself. Before was a bad, dark, evil, scary, and frightening place. As far back as I would like to remember, happy meant one or two moments in a child's life and then everything got worse.
Abuse, death, violence, and this was before drink or drugs were in my life. I found the aforementioned and they gave me some solitude and escape. They gave me the ability to mix with fellows in this mad house they call life. For I was lost and something was missing.
I'm not going to cheat you or myself, for I thought it was just me, me, me who lived this hell.
My results were average at school. Then going forth into the work force I found some status in becoming a signalman with the underground, working shifts till one evening I saw body parts everywhere from one of those so-called 'jumpers'. At that young age having to take control of the situation was hard. It happened three times and then one shift there was a fire of Kings Cross station. It's no wonder I left on sickness grounds.
Escaping my life in every way, drink and drugs became my friends. Doctors and psychiatrics tried but fell at every hurdle.
I found what I thought to be my vocation in life; Dj-ing clubs, fields and radio. Amazing looking back that I found the work environment where drink, drugs and women were readily available.
The abuse as a child made me inadequate and I compensated for that with what became one more addiction, one handed sex and women. Robbing and lying became the norm. I was trying to fix how I felt with all the substances known to man. The death of my mother and my daughter's mother gave me a wake up call for I was dying. It was time to stop the drugs as I had a son with my now wife.
I became lonely with my new found work with computers. I gained a wealth of knowledge; earned some money, but I still had my head under water, I was drowning. For I drunk till I blacked out every night. It was hurting me and was painful, and wanted to die. And it went on and on.
Curtains closed, double locking doors, rarely getting out of bed, alcohol was my friend no longer, it was now my lover. I saw what loneliness was and left the house as little as once a week, if lucky, until the day I walked into the Clifton Clinic.
The white flag was held up high! I spent a lot of time researching clinics as this was my last chance and I knew it. It was scary at first as it was different to what had been the norm for many, many years.
I'm free and safe; I have my armour and my spirit, for I am me! The true me!
What a statement you may ask! But I have the key now and I know how to turn it for the first time in my life, with the abundance of smiles and joyfulness. 28 days was the key. In the safe environment of the Clifton Clinic, the staff showed me how to turn it around. It was a sad, scary, happy, great, but never lonely experience. The Clifton Clinic's very loving caring environment opened my eyes.
Five months on things could never have been better. The missing void in my life and in my soul is filled. Filled with what? A question I ask myself. My spirit!
Life with my wife and two children is like living beyond my wildest dreams. Work and home are so fulfilling. I look, feel and see like a spectacular new person. The thought or feelings for drink and drugs have been removed, for I am recovered from that hopeless state of body and mind. I'll let you in to a little secret; it gets better day by day! And I am eternally grateful to the Clifton Clinic and all the staff who were the key! The Clifton Clinic saved my life, those aren't dramatic words, it's the truth. I would have lost everything if I continued the way I was going, family, work, and ultimately my life. As Today I'm me, and you know what? I love me! My life really is unrecognisable to what it was."
"I have learned so much about myself here and what it is I need to change to live a much more fulfilled and happy life. I have learned it is about change in all aspects of my life and I now feel equipped to accomplish this."
(Female - Age 46)
"The staff are second to none, a loving, caring and safe environment. A very pleasant and rewarding experience which has given me back my spirit."
(Male - Age 38)
"A real eye opener, never, ever did I think that in 28 days I would feel so different. I can see and have within my control a cure for my alcoholism. I would without doubt, recommend this clinic to anyone seeking help for alcoholism."
(Male - Age 39)
"The quality of care was beyond my expectations, I learned about myself, my illness and others. I have opened my eyes and believe."
(Male - Age 41)